i've cracked...yes...again... i don't understand. i just don't... all i know is his crystal pure love for me and how important my jiemeis and friends mean to me right this moment. o levels, friendship problem, a-math...... all these are crushing down unto me like a 1 million tonne whatever... i just can't breathe whenever i think of those stuff. i know there are friends all around me...but it's so difficult to fit in. i wanted to... and i can... but it's real difficult when i think people would talk. i know they won't. but i'm just afraid they'd wonder. anyway, really wanna thank darling and my sisters for being with me through thick and thin and also my brothers in christ... jk,gh and dric. they've been by my side all these while.... especially dearie.... he's truly my angel AND my love~my only~ love ya'll loads kaess! may shiying bless ya'll with her holy elephant prayers... amen... oops. sorry ~ i'm just kidding god~ i repent...*bows

oh no!another day passed! syf's coming in like.....6 days! omg... so stressed up and lost...shannon...pls come back... it's your band...not yap's. we need u. that's all u need to know. kaess? neeways... i found out something myself today. she's not as bad as i expected. she's actually fun to get along with. it's only sometimes her attitude...hmm... and most first impressions are bad. so i ought to give everyone a chance~ = ) right? andand...ppl...please treasure your love ones. they're really really important. i said that cos i nearly lost the most precious gift god has given me... i took him for granted. i din know that to cherish someone to the max is so difficult. and now that i know losing him would be losing my everything, i found out that i really really really love him alot. i never ever wanna lose you dear...never. i will learn to cherish you. i promise~ and i'll never ever leave you. this is one thing that i would not lie to you about and you know it. i wan to tell ppl that....... wo hao xing fu!!! cos i've got marvin yap jj! muacks! love you darling~ <3 woah... tomorrow got geog test maths test chinese test and MT oral for prelim! going NUTS!but i still that...... wo hao xing fu!!!! HAHAHAHAH~= X