working at yamaha was a great experience.
i got tricked on the first day of work, twice.
and they poked fun and laughed at me.
HAR HAR... very funny you people..
right. you must be thinking i'm still as gullible...
AND YES! YOU'RE RIGHT!
NGIAHAHAHAHA!!! I'M THE MAN!
HYEAH!!!! *shows the peace hand sign*
alright alright kids! *claps hands*, let me tell you a story...
once upon a time...








*snores*

it's annoying when people ask what i'm doing right now.
not annoyed by the having to answer part,
but the comments i have to hear after i answer..

so.

i've left millennia institute after two years of "what
do i really wanna be in future" thoughts in my mind.
i found where my heart lies, i'm going towards it,
and i'm confident.
i'm not anywhere now, i'm looking for more jobs, going
to concentrate on driving, waiting for my entry test
into NAFA which is the 22nd of may, and god knows
what happens. i might fail. but i won't give up.

of course, people close to me supports, without doubt.

then there are friends.
shiying, are you sure? you're in MI for 2 years
of your life then you're suddenly giving up?
it's like running a race and giving up half way!

tell you what.
i'd rather give up halfway, than to continue,
figured out i lost.
gain nothing from it.
crying, regretting for not going for what i really want.
it would be more of a waste of time that way.
cos at the end of the day, i'm racing with myself.
not with anyone.
we're all different. remember?

there you go. your answer.
and i'm proud it makes perfect sense.
HARHAR...


what happened lately.
i had awesome times.
hanging out with twin and ksws.
had a day out with alex lee and was funny.
ate manhatten.
performed at the esplanade with a great audience.
saf gave me a beautiful rose.
had a tiff with jannanah but i stil love her.
went to MI band to help out.
helping to print band tees.
having bad hair days.
listening to more band music. no not a freak.
i'm elated huimin gave me a valentine's day gift
after bitching about each other last year. <3
i miss szewei, rachel, eddie, felix and koon er.
okay fine i miss everyone.
my bff charlenemilysimeesunshine, gengky.
arisa's my friend. mine.
yuren doesn't care about me.
i miss helmizar, pan, dennis, zhenhui.
ah... not real awesome .
but the awesome ones shine brighter so i see them more.
then again.. it's not like i lost melancholy.



i'll be working at PS's yamaha.
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i'm not dead, neither am i that alive.
life's pretty still right now,
as usual for the first few months of a new year.
nothing new to fancy, nothing old to brood about.
perhaps a few, but it ain't going nowhere.
so done.

i have applied for tp, waiting for results.
and also nafa.
entry test would be on the 20th of next month.
: D can't wait.


sometimes you wait.
wait for a year or so, and finally the chance came
again. but when you get to see and feel, it's not
what you've wished for it to be. and so, you don't
wanna take that chance. you let go.

i never thought i'd wait.
and i didn't even realise i was, until it finally came.
i saw, i felt. it's not what i wished for it to be.
i dont wanna take that chance.
just yet.
and i have not let go.
and now i know when people said that i'm stubborn,
they're not wrong at all.
just so you know, that intuition has not died.


i had a great evening yesterday.
genghui's the bestfriend!
he's like superman, flying(in a cab) when i needed
a listening ear. fwoo! he rocks!
i love my bestfriends!
and then star gazed with brother chris.
just like old times! (during secondary school days,
we would meet up to star gaze whenever either of
us had problems!)
had a good laughing session.
the stars yesterday night were beautiful.
it felt like i got them all to myself.
it felt like they were listening.
it felt like friendship. : D

Labels: the secret stars. wait.

19 candles. (edited version!)


sometime last week, i recieved a mail.




my first birthday song.
as early as i woke up on the 2nd of feb, i recieved
a message from alif.
"Good Morning... Just wanna sing, happy birthday to u,
happy birthday to u, Happy Birthday to Shiying...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOO UUUUU...."
i replied.
"thanks darlingg.. BUT YOU GOT THE
DATE WRONG LUH!"
cute hor cute. : DDD
thank you!


my second birthday song.
went for kimseng band prac yesterday.
band ended and everyone headed to the usual
eating place while a few of us waited for lawrence
to lock the door.
walked towards there and as i stepped up the last
stair, surprise surprise...a birthday cake awaits with
a whole crowd singing to me. i didn't know how to react as i
totally didn't see it coming but it was amazingly sweet!
hugs and kisses to kimseng band, my second family!



xiumei and jb! i love you guys!
thank you!


my third birthday song.
after the whole dinner cake with kimseng peeps,
rushed to bishan to meet yuren fish, aaron cotton,
genghui bestie and vien!
yuren DROVE us! how cool is that!
and right at 12am, they lit me a birthday cake! : D

my first three wishes.
i absolutely love their company.
it's a worry-free, all-smiles-and-laughs thing.
thank you!


my fourth birthday song.
after the gathering, met dearest zhisen sista!
he said he was sad and needed a listening ear.
met near my house and as i stepped into the
shelter, two heartshaped 'cakes' with litted candles.

(lolle. re-lit-ted with one less candle.heh)
and he sang. yes, on his own. love me sweet sister! :D

thank you!


just two hours past midnight,
i am put to face all these sweet things.
it all happened too fast.
i only get to really smile and feel the love i'm showered
with as i close my eyes before i fall asleep.



woke up, dressed up, met sunshine!

shopping day! fwoo!

and then.. she said she's gonna meet a friend to pass
something. guess who?

these two people got to know each other behind my
back! lolle.
love you sweets!

another gift from my duplicate!




and then had dinner with weiyi! :D


i got free ice-cream from swensens cos it's my
birthday!!! : DD
that's when they sang my fifth birthday song in
a super soft voice. cute uh.


my star balloon from sunshine let go and float right
back up to the sky.
i was sad. i felt cursed. i cried alot.
but as much as i love stars, i guess they are and
will always be meant to shine up there, free.
imagine it drifting to the skies while
i stand there looking at it hopelessly.
it was the bitter sweet part of the day.
cos i still made a silent wish upon it.
and i hope it comes true.


i got home, and out again to meet sis.
he got me laughing hard.
and then, it's over.


well that somehow sums up my whole birthday.
thanks for the wishes to everyone whom in one way
or another wished me a happy birthday.
like messaging, msn-ing, leaving a comment in friendster,
called, tagged at kimseng tagboard, tagged at my tag,
or shouted from the one end of the island to another.
you know, it's a surprise everytime i check my
phone thruout the whole day.
i smiled alot. and i like that feeling.


thanks for the love.
thanks for the hugs.
thanks for the time.
thanks for the gifts.
thanks for the effort.
and it goes out to all of you who played a part in it.





to sim ee and szehou,
it's okay the plan didn't work.
i felt heart and it's more than enough.
i'm really glad to have you both!
and please do not be dismayed.
it was really great! much better than i expected it
to be! plan not failed! : DD
smile smile!
I LOVE YOU BOTH MANY!xoxo

to leong and tzetze.
thanks for so being here even you guys are botak
and back in camp.
if weren't for you both's calls i would've cried
my day away.
xoxo

to zhisen sis,
i'm surprised you did all these for me even after
not contacting for sucha long time.
i love you sis!
and thank you for the company.
xoxo



and lastly, to mom.
thank you for the person i've become.
you're the best mom in the whole wide world and
i love you for that.

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