to samantha:

not wanting to say much.
yes i'm a bitch to you.
but do i care, you FCUKING WHORE?
oh yes you've known me for sooo long.
but you don't even know a single thing
about what i'm thinking.
so stop bitching about me and get a life!
if you consider yourself as a friend.
then i tell you...
YOU DON'T KNOW ME AT ALL.
there is more to what you think is right,
an advice to you, stop being so naive.
and thanks for being a 'friend'
all these while.
i never should have kept you.
this friendship means nothing to me.
but anyway, thanks for making me crack.
not because of your bitching entry
about me cos you kind heartedly spent
your precious time doing it.
but because i never knew you were
such a whore.
wow... so imagine just how mature you
are to say i'm a hypocrite when you are
actually bitching behind my back.
no wonder i hear gossips about you
every now and then.
but now i know those gossips were
actually true huh.
thanks alot... for being a 'friend'.
so now, i'm telling you straight in
your fugly face,
FUCK OFF!

oh, and this entry is specially for you
IN YOUR FACE.
i'm telling you now, just in case you
embarrass yourself by saying i'm
bitching about you behind your back.

and i don't need you to know me at all.
do whatever you want.
bitch all you want for all i care.
i have my friends behind my back.
so watch your act.

no.
i can't sleep.
i'm depressed.
cos i'm losing a very important friend.
ultraman.
it's not the end of the world i knw.
but that's the next worst thing that could
ever ever happen to chin shiying.
which is losing a friend.
i can't imagine that.
someone so close would go so far...
maybe it's time to grow up.

care about yourself before you care
for others.
this phrase is true.
but only half.
i was thinking deep until i realise that
everyone has their problems each and every
single day.
big and small.
but if everyone were to care finish
about all their problems first everyday,
then when would one have
time to care for others?
i'm not like that.
i'd rather care for others before myself.
unless it's a matter of life and
death of course.

well... not too much of the sad part
of my life.
there are happy parts too!
i'm so so so loving my class!
they so rock except for *ahem*.
you know who.
or maybe you don't.
well, there's this guy in my class.
he's a weird guy.
VERY i say.
he's always talking to himself.
ALWAYS!
no one knows what's the problem with
him and no one bothers or should i say
DARE to care about him.
cos he's perpetually scary.
and the girls are all freaked out.
cos his actons are super sudden.
we would all scram to another end where
he sits or walks.
so ya. weird guy.
gp was super funny!
we were talking about the article on
the world's economy where there's a question
asking us to think of a story we could use
to describe the economy.
so here we have felix talking about
'three little pigs'.
i bet everyone knows that story.
the one with the straw, wood and bricks.
but clever clever timmy has a new variation
of the three lil pigs.
so...
the first pig got straw for his house.
not very stable huh?
so the wolf huffed and a puffed and he
blew that house down.
next...
the second pig got wood for his house.
but you know what clever timmy said?
he said it was SAND!
WTF?
SAND?!
WHO THE HEL LIVES IN A HOUSE MADE OF...
SAND?!
mud house got laa...
but SAND?!
that's super ridiculous.
so cos of this... me and him argued
about it for almost half the day.
lols.

sometimes...
when i sit alone and think..
i feel so blessed...
cos i get ALMOST everything i want.
objects..electronics.. such as the jigsaw
i want... the mp4 i want.. the shoes i want..
and tomorrow i'm buying a new hp at a
very great deal with the shop uncle.
the best thing is that... i could afford it
myself. but when i look at another direction,
i see things more important.
friends and love.
i have no problems with darling.
but my friends...
the old ones...
i still can't take the fact that they
come and go so easily.
i don't expect everyone to stay,
but at least the important ones.
i could die without them.

my eyes are closing already.
good mor-night!
oh, btw...
HAPPY APRIL FOOLS'!

so. here it is.

my jigsaw picture!
hahas.
i couldn't find space in my house to put it.
so i guess it'll be staying over at ultra's
house pretty soon.
sadd.
it's kinda stress in millenia.
everyday is a hectic hectic tiring tiring day.
i'm in science combination first class!!
surprise on how i made it there though.
i made alot alot alot of friends.
all friendly people.
not trying to say i'm racist.
but i'm so not used to being in a society
with so many malays and indians.
peirce is like 95 percent chinese with
malays and indians sharing that 5 percent
of space.
but i got to realise that they are people who
are super easy to get along with.
this new environment has made me learn
alot alot of things which i never got to know.
i'm quite satisfied with my life now.
but there are still sad things happening with
my outside school life.
do not wish to mention anyway.
chicks and hunks all around.
but i still love my darling marvin oh-so-much!
hahas.
i'm taking econs as my h1 sub.
it's interesting. very.
but with an econs teacher who laughs at her own
jokes all the time, it kinda makes me wanna slp
during her lesson.
but thanks to timo.
he made me alive during the lesson.
a very sweet guy actually.
and know what?
my form teacher who teaches mothertongue
is my mom's old old old friend can?!
they use to live in the very same kampong
during their childhood days.
and now i have someone to spy on me.
fcuk.

anyway.
what's true friendship to you guys?
like... only finding you when they need money?
finding you only when they want something from you?
finding you only when they need someone?
finding you only when their boyfriend/girlfriend is
unavaible to accompany them?
finding you only when their freaking bored?
finding you only when they've run out of games
to play at home?
like fcuk.
i'm so wanting to visit my bestfriend which i
can't right now.
no one can imagine how much i missed her.
and i'm so wanting to accompany my other bestfriend
cos he's been feeling sad and lonely these few days.
i can't even do all these cos of my hectic life.
so what are you fuckanadens doing?
why can't you guys just fcuking cherish the time
you can spend your friends before your poly life starts?
not wanting to mention names.
but you people are abso-fcuking-lutely lousy friends!
counting the number of 'fcuks' in this entry proves
how fcuking pissed i am with you guys laa.
FCUK IT!
GET A LIFE!
and i don't even know why i bother with you guys.
makes me feel useless.
DAMN!

feel so much better after typig it out.
now, a special message to all my beloved friends.

sim-ee: my sweetest sweetest bestfriend/girlfriend!
i miss you!!! please please take good care of yourself.
i'll surely write to you when i have the time.
so wait for my mail! i'll never forget those memories
we had together. those happy, awkward and stupid
moments are definitely something precious to keep in
heart. no matter how far apart we are, we will always
be close in hearts. you're not good at consoling you told
me once. but you've been the bestest ever listening ear
i could throw all my sadness and anger into.
you're always trying to make me happy. but without
even listening to what you have to say, i'm always
already enlightened by seeing on how much effort you've
put in just to see me smile. our webcam conversations
are the funniest. your actions have never failed to lighten
up my whole day. i treasure and cherish you my beloved
friend. i can't wait to share with my kids about our friend-
ship in future! bestfriends till the end! love ya!

kenny: i'm so sorry bestie. i couldn't get to company
you for the past few days. i hope you're already
looking on the bright side. after the rain, the sun will
appear again with a rainbow. no, two rainbows.
lolss ahem. so smile big for everyone! and i'm so so
glad to know you. i'll never forget how i
got to know you. you've never failed to gain my trust.
even if the whole world were to turn against you, i'll
still be on your side. unless it's another of your stupid
jokes la. hahas. hugs! take good care of yourself!

ultraman: miss you ultraman! know you've been busy
for the past few weeks. yet you still helped and cared
for me and even forked out time to ask me out to eat
in order not to let me know that i'm forgotten.
during my darkest moments you've even brought me
to the beach to gaze at the stars just to make me happy.
even though your wallet is almost empty, you'll always
bring me to wherever i wana go. i couldn't ask for more
having this friendship.. ni zhen shi wo 24/7 de
ultraman! hugs!

cheryl/yiyin: mei and laopo!
miss shopping with you guys super lot!
miss the jokes and stupid things we do on the streets
of orchard road. must take care of yourselves hor.
jie cannot take care of you all much le.
n level and o level better get good grades let me see.
don't get good grades you both die ar. hahas.
love you guys lots lots!

mel/sam/dawn: juniors! you guys make the best percussion
ever! i'll never ever ever forget those practises we had together!
i miss you guys oh-so-much! hug hug hug! yao jiayou! love love!

this seems never ending. i would be stopping here.
but i haven't write to so many people! like aunt, twin, ben
and alot alot more. you guys know who you are.
please know that i seriously miss you guys alot alot!
not forgetting my haagen dazs treat to nurul and all!
please forget me not!
i'l visit you guys when i can! love to all! hugs and kisses!

YAYY!
*hop hop*
i found the jigsaw i want!!!
went to bugis with ultraman yesterday
and i found it!
hahas.
we've been finding it for so long!
that dumb dumb went to dunno how many places
to help me find it but still cannot find...
stupid. lolss.
thank you ultra!
you rawk!
thanks to those who helped me find too!
but the sad thing is that it's not glow in the dark...
= (
aiya. what ever...
i'm way too happy to even bother about it
being glow-in-the-dark.
lolss.
i'm going to malaysia later!!!
to visit my dear dear bestfriend, TAY SIM EE!!!!!!
i miss her oh-so-much!
can't wait to see her!!!!!
i'm coming back on thursday morning for
band prac!bahahas.
and everyone's trying to give me money to
spend in malaysia..
my dad.. my mum.. ultraman.. even my maid.
so sweet right?
thanks y'all!
okay.
i'm going nuts.
i don't even know what i'm typing about
cos i'm like trying to concentrate on my concert piece
which i'm listening to right now.
i'm playing the snare man!
tsk. whatever.
it'll be my last last performance...
and i want it perfect!
so good luck to meeh and adios, SUCKERS!

ps.kenny! thanks for being there for me!
you stone big time! hahas.
don't worry about your appealling laa.
i'm sure you can get in.
so stop looking at the ceiling when listening to
your music! lolss.

hello you!
seems like years since i blogged!
the cobwebs and spiders must be living in here for quite sometime.
well, time to clear them all out and let the sun shine in!
same to my life.

firstly i wanna thank those who remembered my birthday!
that'wus really sweet of you guys!
i've got greetings... lotsa them.
i've even got three cakes.
i'm so so blessed by you friends!
but why do i still cry?
something seems amissed.
maybe the stars ain't shining that brightly on that particular night.
but who cares. i'm swinging seventeen!= )

sorry to those who visited my blog umpteen times but still see no updates.
the reason is that i'm working full time as a UOB credit card telemarketeer and part time as a UOB credit card promoter.
yes... i'm a workaholic i know.
but now the contract has ended. so... hallelujah!
going to have a complete new layout for this blog soon!
but will take quite awhile. so please WAIT!

friendship problems... love problems... seems to be fading away.
i feel so much happier these days!
thanks to those who gave concerm during my down periods.
love to all!
well, life's becoming more and more interesting!
i've got to know lots of friends during this holiday.
and they are absolutely great!
especially the UOB promoters and my dear dear ultraman.
ahmad, wan, ben, christine, nic, manuel, emelda, paing soe, yong kien, germaine, josephine and dewei, welcome to my life!
tsk. lame...
but i love them sooo much laa can?
of course not forgetting my old friends!
i miss my dear dear bestie so much!
i can't even get to see her laa. = (
and a big big shout out to those whom i miss!
aaron the asshole, fish the frying pan, genghui the gigolo, sam the slitherer, arisa minnie, aunt, twin, cousin, cher mei, yiyin, kenny bestie, my 3 brudders, james bunny, kiat and EVERYONE!
you guys light up my life!
ok. enough of those.

i'm posted to millenia institution!
i put that as ma first choice.
i'm abso-freakin-lutely lucky laa!
but need to study chinese again!
friggin hell...
i'm seriously gonna play hard before school starts.
time to burn those secondary sch books away!

as for my name...
my mum says to get use to that name first.
wait till 21 years old then register....
OK LORR...

bad news... my hamsters died.
memories to bacon and cheese...
i love y'all.
seems to me like i'm not a very good pet rearer.
guess i'wus too busy to even take good care of 'em.

wake me up when september ends....
a song filled with so much memories i will never forget.
i'll never forget those times we hang out together..
no matter how far apart we all are in heart or distance...
to me... we make the best gang ever.
thanks for leaving footprints in my heart.
it's time that i totally let go of it to start a new chapter of my life...

recently i heard news of this NYP student taking a homemade porn video using her camera phone.
then her phone got stolen by this brilliant asshole who sends that video to everyone he knows.
and if i'm not wrong, that video is still spreading across asia.
singtel, starhub and m1 must be earning hell lot this month.
and that girl's life must be pretty well screwed by now cos her body is exposed to millions of people thru their camera phones.
good luck to her and well done.

peirce symphonic band is going to have a combined concert with OPW and bishan park and some other school bands. our band is improving real fast! i might be performing though.
if interested, please contact me!
blog again soon!