women.
one of the weirdest creatures on the
surface of this ever sinning earth.
they can be so angelic at a moment
and change into a bitch the next second.
i'm not trying to discriminate people
with the same gender as me.
but look around...
which of the women u know are
actually perfectly normal?
this is not the main topic in this entry.
but.... ISN'T IT WEIRD!!!!???
HUH?!! HUH??!!
*shakes everyone hardly*
SAY YES!!!
lolss.
good dog.

*clears throat*
by the way,
tomorrow is like science practical
preliminary exam!!!!
my mind is like blank!
TOTALLY B-L-A-N-K!!!
listen to it!
*insects cricking*
see! i'm like so dead!
hmm... whatever...
i think i better get going...
gotta start revising now.
adios suckers!!!
*runs away*
juuuuuust kidding!

this is freaking hilarious!!!
the.end.of.the.world<<-----

i can't stand some things that are
going on around...
it totally sucks!!
i can't believe it.
it's crap!
ALL CRAP!!!
i can't believe there are such people
living on this earth.
they ought to go to another place!
maybe jupiter or mars...anywhere!
just outta my sight!
okay okay...
i know u guys are gonna nag...
life's never perfect..
yes yes...
i know it all..
but i'm just so pissed!!!
somebody screw them up!!

life's been exciting for me.
[certainly for everyone..]
i see people coming into my life
with the sweetest smiles...
and i see people just walking out
with some kinda ass face.
it's weird how humans react.
and the weirdest thing is that...
why would people go and care about
what's going on with the person they
hate the most?
aren't they supposed to be enemies
or something?
i hear the most hurting words coming
outta their mouth and that instant i
really feel like shoving a gun down their
throat..
those kinda people TOTALLY freak me out!
and why in some circumstances do i
still see people asking another
person about their enemy?
the lamest things such as
'eh? she buy new bag ar?'
it's like... DUH!!!!
have u ever seen her brought that?
and 'she cut hair ar?'
and then again...
DUH!!!!!doesn't it look shorter?!
and if i were to respond, i would ask her..
'why do you care!?'
or maybe an ahlian version.
'WHY YOU SO KAYPO?!'
but i'd rather not.
i'd shut up and hear them.
i wanna know how bitchy they can get.
their obviously trying to find every single
opportunity to pick on their enemies.
it's like.....WTF!
that's so lame lar!
twin knows who i'm talking abt...
tsk!
and i wanna say this to whomever it may
concern.
please don't find me only when you
need help.
i'm not your spare tyre neither am i your
rubbish dump.
so screw off and STFU!

okay.. i feel much better...
as you can see, i have a counter on my blog!
well done well done...
thanks to chin shiying...
shiying: oh thank you! thank you very much!
so u guys better keep coming...
i know there are fans out there who are
coming to my blog every now and then
trying to spy on me...
i know it all...
don't be shy to approach me for my autograph.
hohoho~

oh crap... i'm insane!

is the world coming to an end?
a question quite cmmon nowadays.
malachy's predictions have came true.
the tsunami floods,
terrorism of the bangalahs and all other
disasters that happened on earth.
and since all his predictions have already
came true at the predicted time,
why would his last few predictions not come true?
two more popes down and there goes the world.
the two popes would be pope benedict XVI,
also known as gloria olivae,
and the last pope would be petrus romanus.
also known as peter of roman.
the world's gonna end between 2006-2012.
natural disasters would start to destroy every
part of the earth and usa would be the first
to fall. then the rest of the earth would slowly fall
except jerusalem..the place where jesus was
borned, would be left untouched by satan.
then son of god and son of satan would
then have a one to one war.
if these things really were to happen,
i guess we'll just have to accept it.
somethings are just beyond our control.
jesus is alive.
god is omnipresent and omnipotent.
all these are reality.
but if his predictions continue
to come true,
then i would probably die at 23 years old.
or maybe even earlier.
if you asked me, i would say that
i really believe in his predictions.
cos why not? since his predictions have
all came true, why would he make a
mistake for the rest of them?
for more information.. please go to yahoo
and type 'prophecy of the popes'.
you'll know more about it.= )

i have a special friend.
i call him kenny.
god gave him a gift to see the living dead.
but god didn't tell him why.
he was confused.
he was scared.
but no matter how hard i tried,
i still can't find a way to help him.
i only can pray and pray and pray for him
i only can ask him to be strong and assure
him that god is always protecting him.
other than all these, there's nothing more i
could help or even say.
when he needed me the most,i hid..
i don't even want to hear his voice
or even send him a message.
the fact was that...i'm scared too.
i'm afraid it would be the last time
i hear him speak..
i'm afraid that it would be the last
sms he will be sending to me...
i'm afraid that he'll get hurt.
i'm afraid that he might not be the same
i'm afraid that he will never be able to
overcome all the shock and horror.
but the thing that i was most afraid of...
was losing a friend like him...

i could never imagine how hurt i would be..
or how lost i would be..
to lose a friend just like that...
i just feel so blessed to know each and
every one of you.
but if i were to lose any of you one day,
i would really hate myself for not cherishing
the times we had together...
to eat an ice cream walking home side by
side at a perfectly hot weather.
to just see a smile that would brighen up
my whole day.
to make the lamest jokes into a super
hilarious one...
to play basketball and laugh crazily at each
of our sillyness at the same time.
to jam and sing stupid songs like
we're really into it....
to act like you hate me and don't care
about this friendship anymore when
one of us makes a mistake but still be
the first one to say sorry.
to escort me to the basketball court and
back to my door step when i was afraid of
getting into the lift...
the simplest actions in the world could
create a perfect friendship.
and today i just want to say that...
each and every one of you stand a
special place in my heart...
i love y'all!

to kenny:
i'm sorry i wasn't there for you.
i'm sorry.
i'm very very very sorry.
i know there's no use
explaining why i did it..
cos there's no excuse why i shouldn't
be there for a friend when he needed
assurance and support the most.
well...
i don't know what to say cos i felt
really selfish for being a lousy friend.
but i'm so glad you're perfectly fine now.
and i felt even glad-er when i saw you smile
at the bus stop just now.
i don't expect you to forget about what i've
done yesterday...like leaving you alone to
feel scared...
but please forgive me.
i'm truly sorry.
i mean it.
i'd do anything to make you
forgive me.
so sorry.....

to err is human.
to forgive is divine.
to continue its errors,
it's diabolical blasphemy.

love can be so cruel.
one of my true friends just broke up
with 'his girl'.
and he was hell sad.
i can't stand seeing or even hearing people cry.
especially if it's a guy.
it's not a very common thing to see or hear.
and the most hurtful thing is that,those tears
i heard flowing away was from my buddy.
a buddy who is true to his friends.
a buddy who brings a smile across every one's face
even if he's sad or disappointed.
it's just so hurting to see these kinda thing
happen to my friends.
especially those true and special ones.

i wasn't in the best mood yesterday as some
worthless immature delinque with verbal
diarrhoea insulted me without any reason.
it's kinda[very] stupid actually.
but i don't know how she insulted me
without any embarassment.
cos i did nuts.
okay.
maybe i did something.
and maybe it's wrong.
listen y'all.
1. i have a buddy who's a guy.
2. i tried to help.
3. she was too childish for advices.
4. she don't know how to define the word 'help'.
5. she ended up insulting me.
6. she said i'm teaching her what to do.
7. and she said my help is not appreciated.
8. she said i was poking my nose into her problems.
9.she said im not wanted nor needed.
10.she said my appearance make things worse.
11.she said i'm acting like a goodie angel.
12.i said she's immatured.
13.she said if she's not matured, in which way am i in the position to judge her.
14.at least she admitted it.
15.she wants to compare with me how long my longest relationship with a guy was and says she got more experience.
16.she said she can't stand people who think so highly of themselves and act cute all the time.
17.she repeated this 'who are you to judge me?'
18.she said i'm trying to point fingers at her and called me to ask my buddy cos he knows whose fault it is.
19.she said i'm acting that i love my darling.
20.she says that i'm a flirt.

ok. i'm gonna reply all these here okay u biatch?
first.
if you don't appreciate it, i'm fine with it.
i don't expect anything in return anyway.
cos you're way too selfish.
it's not YOUR problem.
it's HIS and YOUR problem.
i can't stand it.
so all along in this relationship between you both,
it's all about YOU?
what about him?
and oh my gosh!
u thought i wanna be there for you?
come on!
i don't even wanna get near u!
filthy biatch!
and i did not even appear infront of you.
how can i make things worse?
u wanna debate then get your words right.
acting like a goodie angel?
i don't have to act.
it's just me myself and i.
i don't need an outsider to comment on things
that are so not true about me.
ok.
so u asked who i am to judge you?
hmm.
lemme think.
no one.
i'm no one to judge you.
but look at you.
you're judging me aren't you?
if you think i'm judging you and it's bad,
then i think you're seriously acting like
someone worse than me.cos you insulted me.
you wanna compare with me about relationships?
i'll compare.
i lose.
but at least i don't end up still breaking up
one by one.
and i learnt more about love than you do.
that's the reason why i don't have
so many previous boyfriends.
included that i don't waste time.
so please find someone of your kind to compete.
i'm too lousy at this skill of yours.
but if i were you,
i wouldn't compare this kinda stuff.
it would totally spoil my reputation.
i of good vintage should control my cool
and mock at your sheepishness.
should i?
hmm.
if you can act like you're perfect, why can't i?
at least i don't think i'm mature enough to
have a matured boyfriend like you do.
i seriously despise you.
if you have so much experience, then why
do you still go drinking and clubbing when
u have a boyfriend who's always here for you?
oh.so this is your kinda love?
i'm not being nosey or anything.
but if i am.
look at your friends.
aren't they worse?
they are blind am i right?
look into the mirror before you even
open up your stinky mouth to insult
anyone would you?
if you seriously think i'm acting cute,
then shut up.
keep it to yourself.
you don't even know me.
i don't need your bloody comments.
and i don't even care about them.
people people.
look at #18 please.
how pathetic can you be huh?
you've never loved him.
and if u just realized that you love him,
then i've got nothing to say.
you have to go through a freaking quarrel
just to realise how much you love him?!!!
JESUS! HELP HER!!
damn!
i love my darling.
i love him true and i love him pure.
as long as we both know how deep our love is,
nothing matters anymore.
so we don't need you to comment on that too.
why?
jealous?
what's wrong with having a few
true friends whom are guys?
i trust my baby and my baby trusts me.
i'm not like you remember?
i give trust to whom i love the most.
i don't use my friends as back ups when i
have problems in love.
and most importantly,
i don't lie as much as you do.
so hands off my buddy.
he's for someone much better than you.
U HEARD?
FCUKING BIT*H!

this shows how pathetic human beings can get.
i'm so blessed to have marvin by my side.
i'll never be able to live without him.
i love you sweetie pie!
and to buddy:
i guess you feel much happier when she's gone.
don't cry anymore.
the person you love and who loves you back
truthfully wouldn't make you cry.
go buddy go!
you don't hafta say sorry to me.
you din drag me down.
some people just thinks in a way that
having a guy buddy is called flirting.
pathetic peoples' thinking.
you don't need love from that kinda person.
you deserve much better love.
we'll all support you.

okay. off i go to study.
i feel much better after blogging.
at least my anger rate is decreasing right now.

father in heaven.
please bless my darling, butt, gengky, kenny, arisa,
buddy, louis, yuren, sam jie, dric, twinnie, aunt,
nana, waiwai, and every special friend of mine.
let them overcome any obstacles that come in their
way and please let them feel blessed and happy always.
in jesus'name i pray.
AMEN!!!

i didn't have time to blog yesterday.
so here's a new update.
two things happened yesterday.
one good.
one bad.
but i'm gonna say the bad one first.
this is one of the most embarassing things
that happened in my life.
i can't believe it.
i shared a cab with 3 friends yesterday morning
cos ii'm gonna be late for school.
they went in first and i was the last to board.
so before i even stepped in the cab,
that kcuf-ing driver drove away without me.
so i chased the cab and i hopped in.
it was damn hilarious lar.
if another person were to take my place
i'm sure to laugh my head off.
and he[driver] still dunno what happened sia.
he still down there talking to himself.
NUT CASE!
i felt so damn embarrassed and funny and pissed
at the same time.
i'm gonna make sure that nothing like this
happens to me EVER AGAIN!
can u please laugh? it's meant to be funny.
tsk.
okay.
the good thing is that
SHIYING GOT c5 FOR HER CHINESE!!!!
*everyone pats shiying's head*
yayy!!
i was expecting a d7 or the most a 6.
but holy cow!!!
GOD GAVE ME A FIVE!!!!
that was my target all along!
can't believe it.
hallelujah!
this achievement made me much more
motivated to study.
and i promise to not take it for granted.
thank the lord,amen?
AMEN!
hahas.

wohkae.
i'm kinda hyper.
another thing is that i'm gonna have
hamsters soon!!!!
darling's hamsters have 5 babies!
i'm gonna adopt two~
i'm gonna name the male,BACON!
and i'm gonna name the female,CHEESE!
so it's like BACON and CHEESE!
so cute huhs?
thanks to my creativeness~
can't wait can't wait!

something happened yesterday too.
i don't know how to handle it and i felt
so pissed and bad.
i'm pissed because i did no shit!
and i'm so in love with my darling.
how could she assume that?
i'm never gonna leave my darling
for another guy or anything else.
i'm gonna be stucked with him forever.
you heard?
if you still can't stand me talking to him*
or being his* buddy, i will grant your needs.
i won't want to be a wall in between you two.
i just want to see you both happy.
it's not that difficult aye?
maybe there's still a part which u
both don't know about each other.
take the time.
don't rush.
there's so much time for u both to understand
each other more.
your whole life time.
take every misunderstanding and quarrel
as a challenge to this relationship.
don't ever give up.
i'll always wish u both the warmest and
sweetest blessings.
i don't want me to be the cause of all these.
i'm pissed cos i seriously did nothing,
and my name is mentioned without a
rhyme or reason.
and i felt bad cos i kept thinking i'm
the one causing all these even when
no cause is done by me.
anyway,
wish u both the best. alright?
i'm sorry.
i truly am.
[even if i dunno what i did.]

guess what. i found this piece of crap
on friendster and i totally laughed my ass
off. and if you don't know, i'm still laughing.
Categories needed if u wanna be certified:
For Butch:
1)Stunning/Good-looking/Yandao-ppl wit the look tat could 'electrify' ppl!
2)Stylo/Stylish-having a sense of unique style or the style tat are worthy of looking at.
3)Cute/Adorable-having a face tat makes everyone love u or adore u! CUTIE! <-----oh. so this is what makes a butch?like... CUTE?tsk!
4)Cool/Charming-U may not have the stunning face but u have the charm or the air surrouding u tat makes u special n ppl are just attracted to you!
<-----isn't this the same as category 1?
For Femme: <---just in case you don't know, femme is the 'girl' lesbian.
1)stunning/pretty/beautiful-needless to say, of course is the gals wit dazzling look of an angel!
2)Stylo/Stylish-having a sense of unique style or the style tat are worthy of looking at.
3)Cute/Adorable-having a face tat makes everyone love u or adore u! CUTIE!
4)Hot/Charming-U may not have the stunning look but u hav the charm to charm ppl out of their mind baby!

little did i know that being a lesbian is all about looks.
well, i can act like one right away aye?

howdy folks!
guess what!
i just had a haircut!
my hair is medium length now.
much thinner.
much lighter.
as if i have no hair!!
i can feel more wind now~
yayys~
happy birthday singapore!!!
you're like 40 years old already!!!
hahas...
so old....
tsk~
okae lar. dun suan you.
[as if you're gonna talk back]
i've been thinking alot lately and
i realized that physical appearance is
like so damn important!
it's like the key to get accepted
anywhere you go.
let's say u go for a job interview
and u dress like some beggar,
once u step into the manager's office,
the manager has already made his
decision in his mind which is a 'no'.
wheareas if u dress smartly,
it is a 'maybe' before you even greet him.
first impressions are the most important thing.
another example is going to a new school.
that's quite a difficult place to get accepted as
it will take u quite a while to fit in.
be neat, be smart.
people will naturally come near to you.
be a people magnet!
= X
don't forget to wash your face with facial foam
every single day and night.
and to the girls...
if u did not shave your armpit *air,
please go and shave lar!!!
niao...
so gross!
so smelly!
eeeeeeeeeeeeee....
= X
no offence..
muahas~
i promised to reward myself after the o's!
i'm gonna do facial!
i'm gonna do my hair!
i'm gonna buy new clothes!
i'm gonna go for liposuction!
juuuuuuuuuuuust kidding.
by the way i have not much fats.
nothing to suck also.
tsk!
hmm.
think i'll end here today.
gonna watch ndp while eating pizza!
jealous? jealous???

yellowcard-believe

think about the love inside
the strength of heart
think about the heroes
saving life in the dark
climbing higher through the fire,
time was running out
never knowing you weren't going to be
coming down alive
but you still came back for me
you were strong and you believed

everything is gonna be alright
everything is gonna be alright
everything is gonna be alright
be strong. believe.

think about the chance i never had to say
thank you for giving up your life that day
never fearing,
only hearing voices calling out
let it all go, the life that you know,
just to bring it down alive
and you still came back for me
you were strong and you believed

everything is gonna be alright
everything is gonna be alright
everything is gonna be alright
be strong. believe.

wanna hold my wife when i get home
wanna tell the kids they'll never know
how much I love to see them smile
wanna make a change or two right now
wanna live a life like you somehow
wanna make your sacrifice worthwhile

everything is gonna be alright
everything is gonna be alright
everything is gonna be alright
be strong. believe.

think about the love inside
the strength of heart
think about the heroes saving
life in the dark
think about the chance I never had to say
thank you for giving up your life that day

i love this song.BE STRONG. BELIEVE.

happy thoughts...
happy thoughts...
i wanna be happy.
happily studying..
happily in love..
happily in friendship..
happily in all that i'm into.
i really wanna be happy.
but why are things always getting in my way?
is this really my life?
the life that god planned for me?
i'm starting to think i'm stewwwwpidd...
really stewwwpidd...
i'm always doing wrong things at the wrong time.
i wanna study.
but why do i end up at the bball court?
i wanna study.
but why do i end up chattering away?
i had amath test today.
it was on differentiation.
and i totally forgot all the formulas and stuff..
i gave up on that paper.
and i lied down on my hand exactly on top of my watch.
i heard time...
i heard time ticking away...
'tick! tick! tick!' it goes...
and at that moment i felt so afraid.
afraid of the fact that time is actually ticking away every single moment.
even now.
even when i'm sleeping.
i feel that sleeping is such a waste of time.
why can't we be recharged like batteries in just a few hours?
if all the sleeping time is taken to study and all, wouldn't it be great?
people say life is short.
yes it's short...
and i'm wondering if they said that cos we spend two thirds of our lives sleeping.
hmm.
weird...
today is the first day of seventh month.
why do they have such a day?
are there really spirits wondering?
if there are, i hope they get to eat full full before they go back.
they have feelings too aye?
i kicked a couple of joss sticks this morning.
they flew right in front of me.
i was like 'OH SHIT!'
then i faster walked to the bus stop.
i ain't a taoism.
so i didn't say 'sorry'.
but i prayed to god to keep me safe.
i know he will.
he always is.
happy thoughts....
happy thoughts...................

SURPRISE!!!!
break time..break time!!!
that means i can blog and go online!!!
but only for a while~
cos i hafta continue studying soon.
shiying's been a good girl!
*gives myself a pat on the head*
heh~
i'm starting to "like" a-math!
it's "fun"!
(ya...right...)
i'm just motivating myself to practice more of it.
since nothing comes without hardwork,
i'm gonna study and gain more knowledge than the textbook could teach!
oh no... i just saw the commercial on the latest movie 'the maid'.
and 7th month is coming is a few hours time!!
the worse thing is.... I HAVE A MAID!!!!
and her name is..."ROSA"!!!
no lar... her name's ika~
so cute right?
ika ika ika!!!
i call this name almost everyday.
hehh~
i'm insane.
i wanna tell the whole world something...
that is...
i love my darling marvin!!!
he's like the best darling in the whole fat universe!
i'm so stucked to him and i never wanna be unstucked!
HAHAHAHAHA! oops.
darling took care of me this morning.
despite having only two hours of sleep he rushed to my house early in the morning before my parents even left just to take care of me!
okay lar... he does all these sweet things all the time.
but i'm always so touched by all these stuff every single time.
mui tin oi lei doh yat seh marvin dada!
AISHITERU!!!

i got something to announce!
something very important!!!
i'm serious ok!
so listen carefully!
from today onwards, i'll not be going online!!!
*everyone gasps*
*then sobs sadly*
awww... don't cry...
i'll be alright...
i need to study...
i won't be going too long.
u guys can still ask for my autograph in school k?
*everyone cries even louder*
dun cry... i will not let you all down de...
*cries even louder*
SHUT UP LA!!!
[thank you for your co-operation]
TSK!

school was alright.
went home moodless.
as i walk through the market i saw a bunch of ajc people.
light blue blouses and dark blue bottoms.
it's so totally cool!
i wanna get in.
i really mean it!
i'm so gonna work for it.
AJC HERE I COME!!!
WAIT FOR ME!!!
lalalallaa~