god loves me!
for the past few months i've been living
in almost absolute darkness cos of the
problems that seems to be piling up neverending-ly.
but now i see my rainbow appearing again.
and it's filled with more than just 7 colours.

a new found group of true friends...
team lost form.
never failing to bring a smile across my face
every single day in school.
not even 2 months knowing each other...
but seems like we've known each other for years.
i very much appreciate these gifts god has bestowed me with.

but god is giving me more than enough...

louis and aaron are back!
like.... what could be better than this?
imagine you not talking with your bestfriend for
over five months please.
this is the miracle i've been waiting for all
these while.
my prayers are not of a waste afterall.
for those whom doesn't believe in god..
i've proved you wrong.
so it's time for you to stfu please.

buddy's [aaron] birthday yesterday!
louis, aaron, fulin grandson and i totally
went jamming yesterday at boon's.
renovated, but still sucks like shit.
$16 per hour please.
but had fun still!
we surprised aaron with a cake! = )


may all your wishes come true my dearest buddy.
WE LOVE YOU!
4 of us STICK TOGETHA!
and and and....
i love amsterdam beer!
drank a lil yesterday at lou's void deck.
after i left for timmy's house,
something happened to the three of them.
so so so so sweet totally!
i'm so touched by you three.
this is absolutely true friendship.
AWESOME!

now that things are so fine between us all,
i'm beginning to think about the friends i've
lost hope and trust in.
i hope you guys are doing fine.
thank you for all the wonderful memories.
they will be kept in a special place in my heart.
esp to you... my bestfriend[lgh]...
i miss you alot.. alot alot...
but now you're dead.
and i know you'll never be coming back...
god bless.

yeah!
gonna jam tomorrow!
can't wait can't wait!
totally miss those sweetie pies please.

i'm the laughing stock today larr.
lost form was totally laughing at my
sillyness since morning after pledge taking.
i seriously wasn't paying attention.
so instead of saying the pledge, i bowed,
wanting to greet the teacher.
tsk.
dumb...
but it was absolutely hilarious i have to admit.

i'm missing so so so many of my friends!!!
really wanna meet them up soon...
esp my 2 besties and ultra... = (
i miss aunt and twinnie and the others too!
DAMN...
why must school hours be so long.
gonna ask mum to write a complain letter to
the principal about school hours.
TOTALLY GONNA DO THAT.

debate between our class and another class was
a successful one!
we won by a lil bit!
last minute work please.
totally screamed for joy during the
notification of results.
hahas.
luck was totally on our side that day.

speaking of luck...
i broke my lucky charm.
whole day sad already please...
until din told me something so.....
LOGICAL.
lols.
love ya brothuh!

well..
that's a short summary of what
happened la...
not wanting to say much.
still have a 3 page compo to write about.
so...
adios suckas!

tom went to the basketball court
one day and saw dick.

tom: eh? why only got you and harry?
shiying leh?
dick: oh.. i just now call her she say
she's not free...

BUT WHY MY PHONE NO MISS CALL HUH?!
lolss.
entertainment for me again! = )
what a stupid liar... tsk.

school's great!
school's fun!
cos i've got TEAM LOST FORM!
farhana, felix, timmy, rachel, grace,
cherish, gen, vicc, gowri, ah koon,
cheng kok, fred and me!
we make the team!
hahas.
a happy happy life for me now.
not very actually.
but whenever we're togeda,
life's just GREATTT!!!
plus i'm still in contact with
my besties and ultra and buddy...
alot more. yada yada...
this makes my life plus plus greater!
yes, i'm greedy!
and i'm soooo blessed!
no complaints~~

oh welll... there's one....
PE is a killer!
it's like army training!
believe it or not...
a person weighing 100 pounds
can come out weighin 50..
this is really really true please...

there's another one...
i don't understand why there are two
stupid ants crawling on my computer
screen...
getting really irritating..

gotta go. boringgg

if you get insulted...
will you scold back?
to most people it's of course a yes what.
you instantly get harsh and you become
reactive straight away right?
like what just happened to me is a very
good example.
but who are they to even insult you?
do they even know you?
to say in the ugly way...
even if they are your friends...
they also have no rights to even
judge you.
cos do they even know you well enough wat.
true friends judge me of course i will
think 'am i really this sorta person?'..
'am i really that lousy a friend?'..
i will definitely think through that
and admit if i'm that kinda person.
but if an outsider or just a normal
friend say me lidat.
do you think i care?
i freaking don't give it a damn la can?
and i don't think they should be even
considered as friends laa.
like who the hell are you to even talk
to me that way?
you gain respect from me then talk to me
about ME pls.
don't waste my time.
it's absolutely precious.
can get along with me then im truly happy
and glad to recieve another priceless gift
called friendship.
cannot get along with me then forget about
it pls..
don't even think about bitching about me.
cos to me you're just as free as air.
i don't need you to appreciate ME.
like... everytime quarrel quarrel.
quarrel machiam like everyday
break with stead.
lidat i rather dun keep you as a friend lor.
waste my time...

sorry for my singlish in this entry.
i just hope that everyone understands
what i'm trying to say.
i'm not implying any of it to any
particular person laa.
but this kinda thing...
everywhere also got....
just wanna voice out this situation
to everyone else.
cos the after feeling of bitching
is really sucky laa.
you won't wanna experience it.
esp when that person used to be your
so called friend.
really sucks.
don't follow my foot steps pls.
and pls don't ever think that you can
make everyone like you.
sure got disturbance in life one.
just trying to warn you guys kayes?
so smile big for everyone!
take good care!

to XXX
i'm sorry for all the horrible
things i said.
will you forgive me?


yes.
a funny way to start my entry.
not to say i've forgiven yet
cos this is really difficult.
[imagine you in my shoes pls.]
but after hearing to priceless advices,
i decided to do what i should do and not
get too worked up and end up
hurting another AGAIN.
yes.
not even when they hurt me first.
but i really mean what i said...
so it's up to you to give or take.
i shall rest my case now.
thank you for the memories.