i'm annoyed.

sometimes people just don't think before they speak.
they hurt others un-noticingly and all we could do is
to close one eye to it.
cos we know it will be risking the friendship.
but right now, i'm not thinking.
and i have a valid reason.
it's because i'm annoyed.

just last thursday, i was buying a drink from the
school's vendor.
she's a cantonese lady in her 70s.
i asked for ribena.
and she asked if i wanted ice.
but due to my mild loss of hearing cells and her low
toned voice, i couldn't hear what she was saying.
so i was like 'huh?'
then she repeated with the same tone.
so there i go again.
then she started shouting and scolding me in
cantonese and gave me that cold stare.
and worse of all, she threw me my change.
usually i would just shout back.
but i didn't this time.
cos she's old.
i've got to respect.
and surprisingly, i still smiled at her the next day.
i'm annoyed at how soft hearted i can be.
cos people would take advantage of who i am.
and at the end of the day, i would be the idiot
crying my eyes out.

i'm annoyed at how much money i can spend.
i can't stand it when i watch in envy.
louis vuitton, prada, coach... and all the luxury goods.
how old i am?
and who am i to even think to buying those when i
haven't started earning my own money?
i suddenly figured out that even if anyone
bought those with others' money, it would still
look fake on them no matter what.
plus, i wanna act my age.

i'm annoyed at how those old aunties are today.
they stare and glare and give that disgusted face
when i'm in the mrt with my boyfriend.
we're just facing each other standing close and
talking normally.
what's wrong?
waiting for a free show?
go buy porn.

(you know the sound people make when they are
calling someone?)
i hate that 'zoot!' sound.
it's bloody irritating.
zoot what zoot?
people got name laa.

i've complained enough.
but after typing all these.
i wonder 'why do i care?'
i'm so stressed right now.
i really can't think.
and i'm sorry if i offended anyone.
thank you for listening.
next time if you're annoyed, i'll lend you my ear.
but must return.

OHHHHH FCUK!
I BLOGGED!


to big walnut(daliah):
thank you daling daliah
for the little note in your entry!
you cheered me up alot.
thanks to you, i'm able to do my assignment!
you've been a great friend.
i promise to do my best.!


and to all my friends, gow, farah, grace, rach,
szewei, liyana, aisyah, aishah, murni, nina
and mirah, I LOVE YOU GIRLS! you girls
made school life great!

of course to my boyfriend, you're the best!
you've always been so understanding.
you're my EVERYTHING!
kiss for you!

let's all work hard!
lots of love,
me!

i'm not going to blog anymore.
wrong.
i'm not going to blog until my promos are over.
yah.. that sounds better.
i'm not even going to come online.
ya la... you guys know i can't make it.
but i'm trying can?

what is essential is invisible to the eye.
some things money just can't buy.
time.
if i could, i would pay for time.
if time could be bought, many things that may
turn out wrong, would turn out right eventually.
if time could be bought, we would be able to see
enough of our loved ones before they leave the
mortal world.
if time could be bought, i could plant many many
durian trees and eat forever.
if time could be bought, i can walk one round round
the earth and say hello to all the birds and trees and
maybe even bill gates then rob him on the spot.
if time could be bought, i might be top scorer in school!
WAKAKAKAKAKA!!!
*shy*

SO for the mean time, take good care everyone.
and god bless.
= D

a conversation btwn my buddy and me! :)
i was damn bored at that time.

aaron: yo bud
me: yo cotton
aaron: yo wool
me: no! read the first two words together first!
aaron: wahahaha
me: cotton buds! woohoo! we are the cotton budss!
aaron: LOL omg... you're nuts
me: no... i'm shiying... your bud~! remember?!
aaron: HAHAHAHA buddy. OMG
me: why?
aaron: tell me
me: tell you wat
aaron: who drive you crazy?
me: huh? i dun have licence yet
aaron: AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH save me...


wakakaka! i just love pissing people off.
so funny!
neeheehee... =D

it's so saddening to hear a 3 year plus relationship go
down the drain.
like 'snap!' , and it's gone.
what a pity.
what a sigh.
and what a bloody fcuker he is.

i'm sorry my dearest sister.
i couldn't help at all.
cos i'm suppose to respect your decisions.
you just loved him too much to let go.
guess i'll have to watch in agony.


the holiday has just started.
like darling said.
i shouldn't take it for granted.
instead, make full use of it.
exams are round the corner.
but just as i'm starting to really panic,
god calmed me down by giving me a chance to
ask my twin cousins to tutor me.
yeah!
so i'm leaving house real soon for tuition.
believe or not.
but i'm excited.
excited to gain more knowledge!
that's a stepping stone to my As and Bs!

lastly, a piece of note for you.
[you know who you are]
'face reality.'