i want to:
-eat a fish bowl of gummy bears.
-buy a sewing machine
-have my own pretty room to be cosy in.
-cry my heart out.
-a good watch
-run away from everything with you.
-sit ferris wheels 100 times in a day and vomit
like crazy.
-adopt a tri-legged pup.
-buy a ripcurl bag
-have natural straight hair
-eat yuki n yaki
-a retro green elek guitar.
-meet elvis presley
-sleep under the stars
-play drumset with more confidence
-make heart cookies for everyone
-have perfect eyesight
-a kaleidoscope
-a new phone
-bigger...
-break a world record by fixing a million piece jigsaw
-dark chocolate ice-cream
-create my own fashion line
-finish up my half composed love song
-a good massage.
-stop plucking my finger skin.
-a small little fridge filled with chocolates and candies
-mend broken hearts
-kill smokers
-time with my friends
-score good grades
-score good grades
-score good grades
-score good grades
-score good grades
-time
-time
-time
-make people around me proud
-make people around me proud
-make people around me proud
-make people around me proud
-make people around me proud

Labels: wants. needs.

hello mr. notebook!
you shall be my new bestfriend!
dad bought notebook so i won't have to snatch
the com with sis.
hell yeah! Windows Vista!
and why am i telling you all these? :/

i guess its quite obvious i'm sick again.
really sick. can't speak much if not you'll
see my throat burn. don't dare me.

look look! i won a prize for some chinese
drawing competition thingy!

okay fine its nothing big.

life in school's a mess.
i can't get things right.
focusing but whenever after i try i hear people
who love me telling me 'hey... better listen in class.'
i feel like i'm not doing enough.
i only have one pair of ears my dears.
trying to try okay? :D


its so disgusting to know that someone other
than myself is trying to mess up my life.
come on. don't you like have a new girlfriend?
i'm so totally not jealous. i'm just DISGUSTED.
you're sucha loser to think that i haven't gotten
over you.
why? your girlfriend not up to your standards?
just ma-effing mind your own business alright?
i don't need YOU to tell any other who i am.
am puh-lease.. you thought i would wanna
purposely look at you?
sorry but you're not that handsome anyway.
its your height that got you the attention.
oops my bad.
and wow, i see you kicking off girl friends aye?
irony..irony.
sheesh.
oh and those... people come to me to tell me
even when i don't wanna know.
i don't go to them to ask FYI.
but can't deny that its fun to look at how one's
life screws up.
good luck, bird.


who are you guys?
caring about me and saying hello?
stop bring hypocritical!



viknesh! samuel's not attached! but neither is
he available! don't gay ogay? wahoho!

can't wait to see twin-er and lian-er on saturday!

SAMUEL'S NOT AVAILABLE!

Labels: i want a big hug :D

MIGRAINE PAID ME A VISIT TODAY!
how very nice my dear friend. urk!
and so, mighty shiying didn't go to school!

how miraculous that everytime i need a break
from everything, i get all these shat.
but despite it, it allows me not having to lie
about not going to school! coolness!
thank god.

i don't have to feel that way do i? but ....
WHATCHEVERXSZXSXZ...


i'm gonna clear up my messy table and file all
my notes for all the subjects in order so that
studying will take lesser steps. gonna go get an
MC and then buy dividers, files, post-its, a big
hole puncher and maybe cut my hair AGAIN.
cos it's growing thick again. how absurd. my
pimples are multiplying everyday and GAWDD
i wake up to horror every morning while looking
in the mirror. i scare myself sometimes. hah! ok
that's common but drop it. i miss miss miss so
many people like so so so much. that's what i
ALWAYS always always say but wtf i have no
time and that's why it's so so so freaking annoying
that i have to repeat and repeat and repeat that
miss them and it's not the 'saying that i miss
them part' that's annoying. it's the part when i
stil still still still don't get to hang out with them
that irks me so so so much. and why why why
are you reading all these when it's totally
so so so boring? yeah i know... cos you care care
care about me? don't lie... cos you're Kaykaykay
pooo..JUUUUUUST KIDDINNGGGG~~~
OOOHHHKAYYY SHIT. I'M GOING
NOODLES. head's spinning like a merry-go-
round.


anyway..

want to go hougang anot ah?
[for people who understand only. ]
wahoho!


one last thing.
SUPPORT ELAINE ON CAMPUS SUPERSTAR 2
REVIVAL ROUND!!!
CHANNEL U! MONDAYS! 8PM!
[i'm on tv i'm on tv! chehba..lol]

Labels: migraine kills.FEELING CORNY

day dreaming makes me emo.

before entering a room, you knock on the door.
it's either you stay in the room, or you take, give
or return and then leave.
and when you leave, you don't just open the door
and leave it open or close it with a bang.
close it properly.


my heart's a door.
knock it or leave it.
and when you come in, don't mess it up please.
but if it's accidental, don't push it on me.
don't leave the door open for me to ask why.
don't bang the door close right infront of my eyes.
i will seek for answers and i will ask why.
but till i'm tired i'm sorry , goodbye.
you're precious please know it.
it's not that i want it.
but if you have no choice, please leave a note.
close my door and smile cos you know
it'll still be open even when you go.
don't leave it open, keep it shut.
but what if you do, i don't give a fcuk.
i know my angels will seal it right.
it's up to your conscience if you can sleep tight.
i won't give a damn cos i've put in my might.


just want to tell with all my heart, my love
for you people is much.
please take care of my heart.







no pointing fingers if you're wondering.





yes i'm sure.

Labels: my heart's a door. welcome.