i felt like i lost the world in just a day.

everyone would think they wouldn't be able to see
just one friend as much.
but as for me,
i would stop seeing almost everyone, as much.




i would have to fake a smile each time i hand a rose
to someone i know i'll miss.
remember me smiling. no any other.
parting is painful.
but i know how much i meant.
pretty much. pretty sweet.



i rememberd first day of school when i magically
became a martian in a class of strangers-07s2.
but in less than 4 weeks with me going to
school less than thrice a week, they actually took
the effort to write notes on a piece of foolscap
on my last day, today.
such a simple piece of paper could easily turn
heavy with sweet well wishes.
i totally burst into tears when they handed it to
me before i left.
so feel like hugging everyone.
ahh.. drama queen.



i will so miss my fishes.
i'll make it a point to visit them.
i will so regret not slapping you in the face.
i hope i dream that tonight.
i will so miss wearing the sucky blue uniform.
i will so miss eating sucky GT food.
i will so miss getting back test papers with an egg.
i will so miss being late and running away from it.
i will so miss getting an mc even though i'm totally
fit with abs(szewei must be high seeing this).
and of course i will miss the people.
i will miss capturing more memories.
i will so miss all the things that i will so miss..



eddie and michael totally drew on my hand like
nobody's business during lunch aft school.
it made my trip home very uneasy.
people must be thinking i'm a problem child.
DOH...

draw faces.. scribble... play tic tac toe...

it's not like i won't be back luh hor?
wakaka!

Labels: missings

life.
i swear i'm cursed.
i'm cursed by year starts.

everytime a new year starts which is just right
before my ___, i always! ALWAYS! get all the shiat.
and no.. they don't come one by one.
they all come in big boxes of horrid surprises!
ahhh fcuk.
i remember last last year... it was ___....
last year was ___...
and this year, *breathes in deep*
ican'tbeartoleavemillenniainstitutenonotbecause
oftheschool,butcosofthepeoplewhomi'llreallymisslike
hellandofcoursethere'sonepersonwhomican't
possiblyseemtoletgocosofalltheimpossiblemade
possiblethingswhicharehappeningtomewhichis
relatedtohimandtheni'mafraidican'tgetintpwhich
issodifficultcosofthefreakinghighcutoffpointwhich
isalsototallynonrelatedtofashionandthen!i'mreally
freakingsickandtiredofdragginthatwholefriendship
whateverthinggoingoncoswhatyouwantyouwantto
getwhichmakesmereallywonderwhoyouarecos
you'retotallynotwhoithoughtyouwereobviously
thinkingyou'remuchmorematureinthinkingatfirst
butthenwhowearetoblamewhateverandthenthat
dayiscomingwhichireallyreallyhate!!!!itsuckslike
kcufnooneseemstoknowhowimportantitmeanstome
andobviouslyi'mexpectingtoomuchcositsomehow
showshowimportantyouaretoyourfriendsand
everythingbuthavingmoreguysasfriendsandnotreally
knowingwhatgirlsarethinkingcan'tblamethemcos
afteralltheyweretherewheneverineededthemandi
lovethemlikehellofcoursenotforgettingmydarling
sunshineandwtfhasallthesegottodowithmycurse!
sayarindukamu.

you're not human if you really understood
the whole thing in one breath.
and!


i feel much better.

twentythree.
twentythree happens to be my favourite number.
and it ALWAYS appears in my life i have no idea.
but whenever it appears, i think of____.
my class jerseys are always twenty three and who
ever that wants to get that same number as me
with get their heads bitten off like SNAP.
eee..

my locker number is so coincidentally number twenty
three with my lock pin AGAIN!, including the number
twenty three.
twentythree appears in my dreams.
my que number at the polyclinic ALWAYS!(YES ALWAYS!)
includes that number twentythree and even the kopitiam
table i sit at ALSO can be number twentythree!
and twentythree happens to be the title of my
favourite song.
and did you watch the movie 'the number twenty
three?
cos they did mention my favourite colour
which is that gay colour.
pink.
P,16 I,9 N,14 K,11
1+6+9+1+4+1+1=23!!!
and that guy who's cursed by the number 23,
has the same birthday as me!!!
are you scared???
wakakakkaa!!
RUN!!! RUNNN!!!!!!!
LOLLE

Labels: shut up shiying

I bought you some flowers
but they died on the way
I brought you dead flowers
Guess they feel the same
So take these dead flowers
Keep these dead flowers
So you can forever think of me

In exchange for these flowers
I'll take back the hours
I spent trying to feel that way

Labels: sweet hatred

i'm having second thoughts.
the people, the memories, my fishes in the school
pond, the place.... and of course... the unsettled.
it's tearjerking to think about how it'll be like after
i step out that gate as a non-millennian.

everything happens for a reason.
now, tell me.

I,
(EH LISTEN LEH!)
yes I,
have decided to leave millennia institute.
HAHA! WHAT A JOKE RIGHT!??
bye bye millennia institute!! bye bye!!

lolle!

eh you think funny is it.
i'm really leaving. haha! joker.. BYEE!!!
che che......
then as i make my last few steps out the campus,
people will come running after me..
some crying.. some waving...
some shouting 'shiying! don't go!'
the rest shouting 'shiying! we will miss you!'
aww... so sweet.....



yar right. wrong life.




i'm not the best at making decisions i know.
especially things concerning the outcome of my future
cos i know i won't wanna regret.
i don't wanna head nowhere.
i want a specific direction which i can walk towards
to and when i finally see that light, stars shine..
and i guess that was why i ended up in millennia.
i had no goal. so it just stands as a place
for me to shelter myself until the rain stops.
thought done.
i'm leaving to a better tomorrow.
thank you for the memories darlings.
of course, i will do finish my job,
say more thanks,
capture more memories to bring along.
few more weeks i guess. :)
xoxo