it's been 3 years or so since i started this blog.
much unnecessary feelings and thoughts has drowned this place.
people tend to think they know me by just reading what i type.
and the tagboard gave permission to those imbeciles to
make a fool outta themselves by flooding lies and
vulgarities- which further proved me right that people
who stick their noses to matters which are none of their
slight concern, have very limited vocabulary(that's why
they speak vulgarities more than a proper language) and have
very low IQ.
not forgetting the best part is that, knowing you wonderful
friends of mine, care. : )
thank you for the encouraging tags and concern.
the good will always be kept in heart.
and the bad, ought to be left behind.
i've decided to create another place to pour my
thoughts, basically meant for the few people who are
close to heart to be updated on how i'm doing.
if you asked and i told you, means i trust you.
if you manage to find it without going thru me,
HA! die luh.... means you're damnnnn kehpoh...
your life verrry sad i tell you..lolle




P.S, i've deleted facebook.
i left it dead, it's really flooding my mail and it has
accumulated to 1k plus of requests.
so for those who are giving me pots of
'flowers', 'ben and jerry's', 'louis vuitton'...




heh.







just gimme the real thing luh... : D





leave this place
i'll start fresh

Labels: the last song

i feel like i'm different.
and this time, it's for the better.




sometimes, not helping is helping.



P.S/ i won't be in singapore from 12-15 may.
going on a holiday trip together with my sugar bf!




away from all these.

i was out eating with hun and his bro when my sister
smsed me, 'i think your letter is here.'
*SCREAMS*
my heartbeat suddenly seems to increase to the rate
of 192873918374902384/sec and i felt so jelly.
i swear you could just scoop me up with a spoon
and eat me as dessert.
then the two guys infront of me started to chant
the 'you-sure-get-in' scriptures which i am totally
in the 'one ear in, one ear out' mode.
they continued to chant all the way from amk hub,
to the car, in the car, till my house.
lolle. i barged inside the house, took the letter,
and left house.
he snatched and opened the letter so violently while i'm
facing the wall, talking to it(i don't know why
suddenly it feels that the wall can talk) and
GOING TO PEE IN MY PANTS.
finally he gave a look. not a smile or a frown.
but a WTF?-look.
i snatched the letter, read the first few lines
and said in a surprisingly calm tone.

'i got in what.. why your face like that?'


then he said cheekily, ' ya i know. i act only.'




*pauses*






*still pausing*






*SCREAMS* AHHHH!!! I GOT IN!!!!!!!!
*hugs and suffocates my dear bf*
then tears started flowing.









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-the end-


i am so grateful to those who have supported me
all this while esp. KSWS PEOPLE!
they are like my big brothers and sisters giving me
encouragement all the time.
lawrence, amy and twin have definitely installed some
great advices into my head. you guys rock!
i wouldn't have grown so much without their presence
in my life.
just to name a few,
my sis, sunshine bestie, szewei, weikoon, elisse and arisa!
love you guys!
not forgetting my boy and his bro of course!
and one very important person who've given me so much
encouragement and life advices from the VERY beginning till now,
ALEX LEE XIANG WEI!
truly, a great friend! mac d's on me! i shall get
you the happy meal you so wanted. : DDDD
the rest i have failed to mention, you know who you
are! : D


THANKS A MIL!

yayy! after worrying so much for a month, i can
finally sleep with ease.
now, there's a light at the end of the tunnel. : )




here!

my boy boy! *flashes teeth* : DDDD
i won't be eager to say he's the one.
but i'll say 我很幸福！
and i'm ready for anything that comes our way! : )
can't wait to see what will happen in this love story.
: D
mom finally supports me having a bf!
and dad totally likes him! 奇迹！


life has turned into happylane.
hopefully it won't turn to another anytime soon.


P.S/pardon me for the lack of updates.
this coming may, will be a BUSY MONTH. :D




X O X O, gossip girl.

LOLLE!
AAAAHAHAHA.



siao.

Labels: ACCEPTED, APPRECIATION, LIGHT, MY BOYFRIEND, MY FUTURE

when i was in primary 2, i always get bullied by the
naughtiest boys and girls in class.
reason being i'm a crybaby.
i cry almost everyday cus this particular girl, called joyce,
who used to be my closest friend, doesn't wanna be my
friend anymore.
why?
because i don't wanna give her my 10cents singapore
flag eraser.
so she said, 'i don't friend you liao'.
starting from then, i don't have any more friends.
i cried almost EVERY DAY.
and sometimes if i am smart, i will act like i'm sick and the
office will call home for my maid to pick me up.
i will be damn happy once i step out of the school gate
earlier than the rest of the school. i can even dance
all the way to the bus stop. lolle.
that's a secret between me and my maid then.
but of course, things got better during primary three.
i made new friends.

thinking of then, i couldn't help but to feel foolish.
i could have been strong, but all i wanted was to act
sick so that people would pity me and do things
according to my way.
(you can't blame me for being a crybaby really.)

that's something i never ever wanna be good at.
and that's something i've learnt from myself.

being sick's not an advantage.
it's a disgrace to oneself.
cos if you truly know how to love, you will never
let yourself go thru such pain - allowing people who
love you to watch you in pain.



after this time, shiying, no more.
H20 will be my new bestfriend! : D

Labels: sick of being sick, 自爱

can't believe i missed SFF 2008!!!!
*SCREAMS*
)(*~&@)(#^)~*@(^$#@^%!#(*~@)#!

feeling more useless than usual today as i'm unable
to leave the house.
bingo. flu and cough paid me a visit again for the second
time this year.
but basically it's only half-flu, cos only my right nostril's
wasting the tissues.
how very nice to come on a saturday.
i'm missing the best day of the week!
: ( kimseng....
hope twin takes my share of the fun.

so.
alot's been happening lately.
some pictures perhaps.



been to the night safari with mom, wati, and twin.

making animal(and flower) balloons for kimseng people
with no apparent reason because charlie didn't come for
his very birthday celebration.






alicia got sick. :(

we went to the hospital to visit her.
but she's recovered.yayy!

and that big bird balloon is really.. uh..... big huh.

yamaha's drumsticks section neat and tidy because of,
me. : )


kimseng chalet! fwoo! had great fun! bbq people!



kitty kitty!




that's the best part you know what i mean..

cycling to macs as early as 5am in the morning, is awesome.
the breeze especially.



escape!


hanging out with bestie genghui and cotton.:)

and christopher.:)

that car's really cool though. the sky's on it.


no, i'm not weird! you lack creativity!
HAHAHOHOOOOO~~

passed by the pet shop. cosy coseee~~ so nice~~

bought chocs!


okay, very random.
but my head's not doing so good now.
later.

it's a good time to leave my truckloads of worries behind.
so, today i packed up, and left for malaysia to find my twin! :D
i feel so light now. like a feather!
i wish that my dreams will let me float to the stars! :D

i don't know.

okay i hate to say 'i don't know' nor hear it.
but today as i think deeper, i really have no idea why.
if you haven't realised, i'm not me anymore.
or is it the hard fact that i've changed?
struggling to grow stronger that i hardly care about
other's feelings maybe? no not.
when i sit down and think, i could feel my presence.
i still know what's right.
i still know what's wrong.
but sometimes, i got to admit, that i haven't really been
thinking about what's best for my feelings.
contributing all the time hurts.
i've been doing a whole great lot at work,
doing my best at whatever task i'm asked to do
and yet that gay boss is still bias towards me.
'happiness belongs to you and only you. if you don't
let others touch it, it will always stay as yours.'
i've been saying this quite frequently to a number
of friends due to their problems.
but i could never quite figure out on how to imply
it on myself.
i can hardly laugh, not even smile perfect.
bad sign for skin i know.
shiying needs to come back.
i miss being me.

oh wait.
i know why.

i'm living in fear almost everyday.
yeah. i guess that's it.

i've been thinking about my nafa results every day ever since
the entrance test was over.
well no one will understand that feeling i suppose.
cos i'm the only one among all that's going thru this.

well blogging helps brain storming.
type it out.
i feel better.

happier posts will come up eventually.
i'm sorry.

Labels: making no sense. making sense. why. nafa. type.