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hee hee!

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i'm retaining in millennia institute.
hahoohoooo!!

tsk! bitch.
i have no idea what i'm happy about.
but at least i'll take this chance serious.

oh.
my line's back.
like long ago.


:)
okay.
bye!
off to read my chinese textbook for A'levels tmr!


yes! it's a big deal!
hahooo~~

Labels: hello shiying

everyone thinks i'm having a hard time.
they're right.

i hate to face this every period of time in life
when i get to feel that everything's changing,
people's gonna leave, what will happen to myself...
its inevitable needless to say.
but its a sour pain feeling in the heart having
to face the fact that everyone in your life can only
walk with you down the road for only a period
of time.
mom and dad, they'll leave someday.
even your soulmate and your friends.
and at the end of the day, you'll realise that
hey! i'm all along by myself!
nostalgia takes place.
life huh.


but then again, i'm not feeling that horrible.
i'm very very lucky in fact.
i've got you guys to paint me life!
what more could i ask for? :)

tay sim ee BFF!
joshua lek genghui BESTIE!
kenneth ignatius valeron KENNY!
lim yuren FISHY!
aaron koh cheak jian COTTON!
arisa nomura MINNIE!
samantha chionh yun shan SIS!
tee sze hou TWINIE PING!
tan weilian LIAN ER!
pan lim boon tat PAN ER!
dennis SHI OH!
zhenhui JENGHUEYYY!
alex lim CRAPPY!
viknesh DARLING!
goh weikoon KOON ER!
gowri devakaran DARLING!
lee szewei DARLING!
rachel peh heng ling DARLING!
noor farhana hanafi DARLING!
grace lim huey hsia DARLING!
eng tze kiat TZE TZE!
leong ROCKS!
sakqtheesh ROCKS!
bryan ROCKS!
tuan kiak ROCKS!
wang junhao HAHHAA!
adib DARLING!
alex kooi wei hao ROCKS!
saw wah WAH!
crayon LOVE!
marcus ROCKS!
lim keng guan ROCKS!
felix BEAR BEAR!
michael thiang shi wen PIG!
jannanah DARHLING!
victoria lim pi tsu DARLING!
genevieve chong xue er DARLING!
eddie I'M ANGRY!
yeung szeman SIS!
hilmi CHOCS!
the whole of 06S1!
daliah LOVE!
marcus ROCKS!
christopher quek BRO!
band juniors and peeps!
fion BABY!
cy ROCKS!
joyce ROCKS!
melinda ROCKS!

i love you guys for being there for me
whenever and wherever.
even without me having to ask, or show, some
of you can just feel me.
whether i'm sick or feeling low, you guys
played a big part in bringing the colours in.
you people gave me strength and love!
友情万岁！
saya cinta kamu!

Labels: thank god for friendship.

16th october - mum to see vice principal
17th october - angklung practice + band practice
29th october - A level mother tongue paper
1st november - project work oral presentation
3rd november - Angklung Kulintang's Concert at..... no idea where
14th november - A level H1 economics paper
20th november - Kim Seng Band performance at changi hospital
15th december - Millennia Institute Symphonic Band concert
24th december - Kim Seng Band Christmas performance

busy busy busy...
inbetween, i'll still have to attend practices and do project work stuffs.
4 performances in 2 months!
why am i included in angklung?
cos they don't have a drummer.
FAHMI!!!!!!!!!!
imagine me wearing a sarong playing the drumset.
oh well.
life's like that.



for me.


i'm lucky i have great support.
if not i would have fallen.
xoxo

heyho, you bunch of suckers!
i, CHIN SHIYING, didn't promote to year three!
:D :D :D :D

this, a day i will never forget.
i do realise the amount of care i'm showered with
for the whole of today.
naggings and advices bombarding my partially
deafed ears for almost forteen hours already.
YET
i feel like its a blessing instead of a tragedy.
i feel like i've grown to face failures.
and this is totally a fall hard enough to deflate
my cute face.(oh shaddapp!)
i feel like i'm.. different.
oh yes, i will survive.
i appreciate and am thankful to all who were
there, spiritually and or literally.

and koon er's words got my jaw hanging for 3 secs.
"loser are not those tat take a longer path,
but its those who give up halfway or u don even
noe wheres the end point"
KOON ER LEH...

gotta thank my class darlings! and
jenghuey, twin, lian, pan, dib, hahha, wah, hilms,
etc. and of course shammy~ not forgetting mrs
kuek, the best mentor ever. i feel guilty for
letting her down. :(

shiying jiayo!

(hear song)
sometimes, people got misunderstood by my
actions.
but little did they know its actually because of them
that i did something which is oh-so-bittersweet
and i believe that's a reason which no one can blame
but only me myself.
i care too much.
and maybe i shouldn't even feel to begin with.
cos instead of making the other party feel sweet
and secured by what i did, the feeling of betrayal
rises and all feels numb.
stress is paracetemol for joy and pain.
although i do understand to the max about
what it has brought upon life, i don't think
i deserve to carry the aftermath.
i'm afterall just someone simple, someone
plain.
someone, in love.

integrity, gone.
self importance, gone.
feelings, buffering.

what can i do?
a whole lot truth.
i did.

what can you do?
just a tiny bit of selflessness.
conscience.



if you're lost, you can look and you will find me.
time after time.
if you fall, i will catch, i'll be waiting.
time after time....

Labels: begging loses me. i gave my all. thank you.

it's so cliche.

can you stop being like this? it's not like i want it to happen. but it's your fault! ok fine. i'm sorry. it's all my fault. but seriously in my mind i'm still right. i just am tired of quarrelling. but stop shouting at me already! i can't breathe proper. i need some air! will you just give in and stop thinking about your ego?! is my health less important than this tiny argument? i'm sorry but there's nothing i could do or say to make you stop! i'm sorry! i give up! it's all my fault! i admit okay? i just want us to be okay! i promise i won't let this happen again. sorry darling. i love you.

aren't most couples like that?
but on it goes, we all get tired.
we stop thinking.
we couldn't care less.
and then it all disappears,
into...



nothing...








it all seems bleak.
where have we gone?

Labels: teenage romance. oh-so-cliche.