i wish that sometimes i didn't have to understand.
i wish that sometimes they will expect me to not understand.
i wish that sometimes we're not close.
in fact, we've drifted apart.
i wish that sometimes they can turn around and understand.
i wish that sometimes they will know that i need them to.


i wish that i never had to feel this way.
i wish that we never had to drift apart.
i don't know the meaning of 'bestfriends' anymore.


i'm tired of making first moves.
i'm damn stupid.

my life is great.
i have so many friends, i laughed alot.
but i have never failed to realise what has gone missing.
and it feels like i'm the only one realising it.
fcuk! i'm DAMN STUPID!!

let me tell you.
it means alot to me.
please.

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