我不要。
我不想读书。
我要设计。
我要设计许多漂亮的衣服。
我要开一间服装店。
我要在街上看到人骄傲的穿上我设计的服装。
那样的感觉一定很爽快吧。
可是书也读到一半了，
如果放弃，会不会很可惜？
我两个都要。
可是我又怎样做才不会为难爸妈呢？
再重复会被人看摔吗？
我不要...

Labels: lousy chinese

Good Morning Singapore!
welcome to weather forecast, this is shiying
speaking.
today there will be scattered thunder storms
around the whole of singapore and
temperatures will be from 26 to 30 degrees.
roads will be wet thus drive with caution.

BUT WHO CARES!
AHAHAHHAHAHHA!
my favourite cartoon in the universe is on!
tune in to cartoon network for
FOSTER'S BIG FAT HOUSE PARTY!
saturday and sunday!(18/8 & 19/8)
12pm to 6pm!

someone buy me the whole series!
WAHOHOHOHOHOHO!!!!!

Labels: 'I'M ALL GROWN UP'

everyone gets to experience the little big
different things in life.
i'm sort of a pessimistic person.
i worry. i panic. i fear. alot.
i'm scared to lose what i have.
i'm scared to accept what is given.
and that is why i got into this state when i get
to no where. cos i spent most of my time
entertaining myself rather than reaching for life.

hafiz says 'shiying. your life is such a tragedy.'
and i would say 'shut up bitch!'
now i think likewise.

i've seen friends losing to themselves struggling
to get back on track.
i tried helping.
i even thought i was clever to offer to pay for
one particular friend's school fees.
naive.
i knew how it felt like.
and now i feel like.

i feel like a lost star in the black universe.
i'm worrying about what i'd become,
what i'd have to go through.
there's just too much to actually sum up how
i feel right now.
i'm sorry mum and dad.
to kor too.

the 'if i don't get promoted' choice(s).
1. go straight to fashion school.
2. retain in MI

the 'if i get promoted' choice(s).
1.struggle one whole year for A's.
this is unlikely to happen.

urk!
give me a break!
please save me flash.

Labels: my turn.

sometimes its me.

i'm becoming to look like some kinda freak.
bad hair days and dark circles.
just the perfect person to take the role of a
beggar in some kinda tv series.
tell me i'm kidding.

no i won't believe you.

ohhh boy.
getting corny lately.
you see, i'm stressed.
and i don't think i'm very sensitive lately.
i don't think before i speak sometimes.
but hell yeah.
i helped someone break up with a fretard.
i'm mean. :D
but i'm doing something awfully right.
wahohoho!

i'm singing chinese songs i tell you.
freaky.
don't be surprised if i can sing hindi songs
one day.
and probably i'd plant a coconut tree soon after.
:D
SO COOL!

hand ball is a super fun sport!
wahoho!
but we lost.
and my team's name is SO COOL~!!
uh.. as in the name itself.
think you can guess who chose it.
HEH.

oh! oh! oh!
and do you know that we blink over 10 million
times per year?
that's like...so, gay!
i know right.

national day celebration in school today!
played the snare for parade.
super freaky.
didn't play much rhythms.
urgh. i could have!
stupid shivering sweaty hands!

i do hope i'll have time to get her a present.
but i know she'll understand even if its late.
she loves me and i know it very well.
besides, what are BFFs for?

to all.
forgive me please for my lack of response.
it's not that i don't care.
i just really don't wanna get distracted.
my concentration level is like super low.
i just have to focus.
and i've blocked out all buggers that might just
trigger my nerve anytime.
like what my refuge said, true friends will
understand.
and i believe so.

oh. when i appear online, i'm not really exactly
there. so don't expect my to reply sometimes.

i do day dream about my friends. you know
who you are. you're deeply missed.
alot.

and then samuel rocks.
like, DUH.
couldn't have made it w/o you.

and *poof!* right back into your heart.

Labels: stress and randomness

i'm DISGUSTED.
(sorry, but this entry is to let out my anger on.)
life is just bad enough.
there just has to be fugging birds testing my
patience and ridiculing themselves infront of me
every now and then.
i eff-ing have NO IDEA why i care, but
i guess stress made me feel like everyone owes
me something.
i feel like doing something extreme.
but what the heck.
i don't wanna go to jail.


1. to you-can you STOP! i said STOPPP acting
like you're a goddess please?
you're not hot.
you're not pretty.
you're short.
you're ugly.
all these nevermind.
but can your skin get any thicker?
you broke up with him and then you told some
random guy that doesn't even know you guys
are together that 'hey! i broke up with him! now
he very sad leh!'
okeh lor.
the day after you all broke up i still went to eat
long john silver's with him and we still laugh until
wanna pee leh.
why uh?
and then why a day after i knew you said that i
heard from him that you asked him for patch uh?
PLUS you can tell me 'you know.. after i broke up
with him my friends all spread around say i'm single
and then suddenly alot guys wanna come after me.'
kiss my ass.
they must be drunk if they really did.
and thanks for allowing your lama-faced friends
to detest me for no reason.
friends stand up for one another.


2. i can be your friend.
but you abso-fucking-lutely took my friendship
for granted.
good luck to you in your future endeavours.
don't ever come looking for me telling me
bullshit when the tide is low for you.
i don't wanna know.
i don't need to know.
you're wasting my life. my friendship.
never should have cared so much.


3. you guys friggin' gossiped about me in the past
and you're acting SOOOO friendly to me in school
like you want my autograph.
it's scaring me luh.
why? guilty conscience coming up?



sooooo disgusted.
but yeah. actually not alot luh huh.
i don't mind knowing alot of people.
but can they be more careful of what they say?
cos i'm not as angelic as oprah winfrey.




sorry for lousy and rude english.

Labels: disgusted